BEYOND THE AWARENESS OF
TRANSPARENT CONDUIT CONDITION*
ERASES ALL THAT IS UNREAL
*(& AT TIMES REPORTEDLY TRANSLUCENT)
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Extensive quotes helpful in "pointing towards"
a One's life condition since each planet entry
into the Mother's Womb
but a sort of free flow,
a fluid process of nature itself
that freely irrigates by merging thought and action.
When corrupted and tainted by self-identification,
it is known as an individual.
of animated consciousness,
it is the impersonal witnessing.
untainted and untinted in primal repose,
it is the Absolute.
A Net of Jewels
Life has forced me to Remember the
Primordial “I AM”.
dmm - 1989
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Offering in/of/as Awareness
that is beyond Awareness
2:28 PM -7/16/19
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A few Writings/Wordings that have been VITAL for this life in form...
...for many years...
...and are VERY present this day.....
We are also having a CLEAR OUT of Excess
in this Youthansia Sanctarii Abode..
.Praises Be to Friend Lena for helping to clean and organize this....and to all those responding.
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Lucifer’s Liquid Ploys
Sperm & Alcohol
Stages of Possession
“Because of his Lucifer charm that seems so Deeply Divine,
it is effortless for him to attract another victim.
They flock as bees to honey....
or more appropriately,
as moths to a light
that destroys them by flames.....
Flames of passion in the beginning
that soon turn to veiling ashes
the inevitable stench of decaying flesh because the Spirit has been devoured.
The life sucked from the bone marrow.”
Evil’s Tender Kiss
is “fastened” upon another, she has no choice
but to come to him....
like a skittery moth to the flame.
It happens quite etherically/invisibly
over a period of time that may be years....
the moth doesn’t know what happened
The stages of possession are as follows:
The manifestation occurs due to the “gaping” hole in her being....
...and mostly quite an unconscious hole....
she is naive/ignorant,
in other words.
This is why the mental sorcerer’s Obsession
begins to “work” to fill that unconscious
gaping hole and actually creates in the
“moth” (woman) the experience
of being “filled” or being made whole.
Actually, the sorcerer has created exactly what it is he needs for his own gaping hole.
Both have large gaps in their being.
The moth/Galactic is unconscious of the depth of such evil......
the sorcerer mentally knows and thinks
of it ONLY as a game of power,
The naive Child of Light (Galactic) Knows only Love and Light
and has no experience or ability to understand that an other operates on such instinctive, primal and mentally-willed levels.
After the sorcerer Obsesses
(thoroughly and focused)
the Manifestation of the moth occurs in his physical life.
He then Knows he’s making progress....
once the moth physically appears,
the subsequent stages of possession unfold more rapidly.
This is exactly the same principles of
Spiritual Law of Precipitation or Manifestation...
only the purpose and results
are totally dark and opposite
Divine Law operates in both types of Manifestation.
It is Divine Law
that such a sorcerer will self-destruct
and One of Love will Infinitely Increase....
IF she survives and/or remains True in
IF she NEVER
Even if she is physically destroyed,
her soul must always Know God First....
else she is returned to a horrible karmic tomb,
perhaps lower than the one of the Dark One.
If Lucifer cannot weaken the One of Light
by filling her with his liquid ploy (sperm),
he will resort to opening her aura with
liquid ploy of alcohol/drugs.
September 20, 1999
THE PATH THAT IS DIVINELY ORDAINED FOR YOU
IS IMPOSSIBLE IN HUMAN TERMS.
THIS IS WHY YOU ARE SHOWN THE EARTHLY FACTS AHEAD OF TIME...
YOU ARE LIVED, IN CONSCIOUSNESS THE PATH, BEFORE IT OCCURS IN PHYSICAL..SO THAT WHEN IT ACTUALLY OCCURS IN FORM,
YOU ARE ABLE TO MAINTAIN PERFECTED PEACE,
WITHOUT HUMAN ATTACHMENT AND EGO POSSESSION,
DURING THE WALK.....NOT ONLY FOR YOUR OWN SOUL’S SAKE,
BUT FOR THE SAKE OF OTHERS...AS THEY INEVITABLY
REACT IN PROJECTED FEAR DISBELIEF, AND EVEN INSANITY.
BY EARTHLY TIME AN EVENT PREVIOUSLY GIVEN OCCURS IN FORM
YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED THOSE HUMAN EMOTIONS SOLELY WITH ME...HAVE LEARNED TO MELT ALL INTO ME AND EMERGE REBORN, RENEWED AND IN PERFECT PEACE THAT PASSETH UNDERSTANDING.
SO WHEN PEOPLE AROUND YOU
REACT IN SUCH SURPRISE AND NEGATIVITY,
YOU CAN BE HONESTLY UNMOVED...
AS YOU COMPASSIONATELY, DETACHEDLY RECALL
THAT YOU, TOO, HAD THOSE SAME REACTIONS AND EMOTIONS
WHEN THE VISION WAS FIRST EXPERIENCED.
THERE IS NO TIME IN THE UNSEEN WORLD
AND AN INNER VISION EVENT WILL NOT AND CANNOT COME
INTO EARTHLY FORM UNTIL
YOU ARE PERFECTLY CAPABLE
OF DIVINE DETACHMENT...AND THEREFORE
ARE ABLE TO BE HELD IN DIVINE PEACE WHILE APPARENT HUMAN CRUCIFIXION PLAYS ITSELF OUT.
REMEMBER WELL, DEAR HEART,
THE OLD MAN IN THE BIBLE WHO WAS STRUCK DUMB....WITHOUT SPEECH, BECAUSE HE DOUBTED THE VISION GIVEN.
HOLD ALL IN THE SECRET PLACE MOST HIGH WITH ME
Future Memory Whisper
TO HELL WITH THE DEVILS
(re: Saint Teresa of Avila)
In the twenty years before her death at age 67, Teresa of Avila spearheaded a controversial reform within the Carmelite order, authored four classic contemplative texts, gave spiritual direction to John of the Cross and countless others, and commanded the respect and obedience of priests, bishops, and civil authorities including the King of Spain.
I have often wondered how Teresa, a vowed religious woman of poor health and living in sixteenth-century Spain, could accomplish so much. In those twenty years, she was fearless of the turbulent and often vicious powers around her. She was "amused" at being examined by the Inquisition, and said to the devils,
"Come now, all of you ... I want to see what you can do to me!"
It was not always that way.
During the first two decades of her religious life, Teresa was besieged by self-doubts and fear of the devils. She strove to conform to the rigid expectations of outer authority, but her prayer was irrepressible and spiritually incorrect for a woman of her times. She heard God speaking to her, and she saw inner visions of Christ. Her experiences seemed valid while she was in prayer, but afterwards, reflecting on them with others, she was terrified they might be the work of the devil.
Her early spiritual directors confirmed her fears. They were certain the voices and visions came from the devil and sent Teresa from one counselor to another. She was told to abstain from quiet prayer and solitude. Obediently, she tried never to be alone. But then "the Lord made me recollected during conversation and, without my being able to avoid it, told me what He pleased." One director even ordered her to make the "fig," a contemptuous hand gesture, at any vision of Christ she might experience. She obeyed, even though "Making the fig at this vision of the Lord caused me the greatest pain." The fearful concern of her friends and advisors left her feeling abandoned, dreading that "all would run from me."
What empowered Teresa to transcend two decades of struggle with herself and her advisors? Teresa describes what happened. She finally surrendered, not to her own judgments nor to those of anyone else, but to God alone. She quit trying to control her prayer and simply put it in God's hands. Thereafter, instead of blindly trusting the opinions of others, she tested them against her own interior experience of the Divine Presence.
Repeatedly she affirms it was God's sheer grace
that enabled her to surrender and, thereby, find her strength.
She also mentions three experiences which were vehicles of that grace.
Two were words she heard God speak in prayer;
the third was meeting a human being
who finally understood her.
One powerful word from God came at a time when Teresa was feeling especially abandoned by her friends. "They were all against me;" she wrote, "some, it seemed, made fun of me ... others advised my confessor to be careful of me ..."
Praying in her loneliness, Teresa heard God say,
"Do not fear, daughter; for I am, and I will not abandon you."
"By these words alone," Teresa says,
"I was given calm together with fortitude, courage, security, quietude, and light
so that in one moment I saw my soul become another.
It seems to me I would have disputed with the entire world that these words came from God. Oh, what a good God!"
Another time, God's words dealt with the importance
Teresa had been giving to the opinions and perceptions of other people.
"No longer do I want you to converse with men
but with angels."
Her interpretation was that she no longer needed
to give energy to relationships with people
who weren't genuinely dedicated to "loving and serving God."
"From that day on," she wrote,
"I was very courageous in abandoning all for God."
There is some indication that she also attempted to apply this to some of her less-than-helpful spiritual directors, but God seemed to insist that she continue to obey them.
Then, just before Teresa began her monumental works,
she met Peter of Alcántara. Peter had initiated a reform of his own Franciscan order and encouraged Teresa in hers.
He was a man of deep prayer and devotion, widely respected for his asceticism.
Teresa bared her soul to him, and
"Almost from the outset, I saw that he understood me through experience,
which was all that I needed."
Peter so trusted Teresa's inner experience
that he shared "his own concerns and business matters" with her
and asked her to pray for him.
To make things even better, Peter then went to Teresa's spiritual directors,
assured them, and, in Teresa's words,
"gave them motives and reasons for feeling safe and not disturbing me any more."
Some of these directors became Teresa's beloved friends and colleagues in later years,
and "the one who had troubled me most" finally became her directee
in a time of crisis near the end of his life.
Being able to surrender her prayer to God alone,
being reassured that God would not abandon her,
and being understood by one prayerful human friend:
these were three powerful vehicles of grace
that enabled Teresa
to tell her devils to go to hell.
As she began the great works of the last twenty years of her life,
she proclaimed of the devils,
"I pay no more attention to them than to flies ...
A fig for all the devils, because they shall fear me ...
I fear those who have such great fear of the devil
more than I do the devil himself ...
'The devil! The devil!' we say,
when we could be saying 'God! God!'
and make the devil tremble."
I have given only the barest sketch of Teresa's empowerment here, but perhaps it will help illuminate these words from one of her most well-known poems:
Nada te turbe, Nada te espante ... Sólo Dios basta.
Let nothing disturb you,
Let nothing make you afraid ...
God alone is sufficient.
Quotations are from "The Book of Her Life," Ch. 24 ff, Collected Works, Vol. 1 (Washington, DC: Institute of Carmelite Studies, 1987).
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I sipped the sap of each sane pleasure;
I exulted in the crushed beauty of sextillion stars;
I made a bonfire of all sorrows and basked in the glory blaze;
I quaffed the questing love of all hearts;
I mingled paternal, maternal, and fraternal love together,
And drank the solacing draught;
I squeezed the scriptures for drops of peace;
I wrung poems from the winepress of Nature;
I lifted gems from the mine of thoughts;
I stole the sweetness from the honeycomb of innocent joys;
I read, I smiled, I worked, I planned, I throbbed, I aspired;
But naught was sufficient.
Only nightmares of incompleteness,
Ever receding will-o’-the wisps of promised happiness,
Haunted and hastened my heart.
But when I cast all dreams away,
I found the deep sanctuary of peace,
And my soul sang:
“God alone! God alone!”
This Yogananda quote Finds me Synchronistically
11/7/17 5:17 AM
This work on nondual realization is a detailed report on growth beyond
what may be called the final duality, or what Roberts calls the first of
two distinct and separate movements in Christian contemplative
The first contemplative movement is described as union of the self with
God, where God is the "still-point and axis" of being. In the first
movement, self is not yet lost, but functions as a higher self in its
union with God. The sense of personal selfhood remains. Abiding in God
remains. Being centered in God remains. The divine life remains. God and
But in the second contemplative movement, self and God fall away, and
"that" remains. Union with God gives way to God beyond union. The mind
becomes fixed in the permanent now. The self's union with God transcends
"Here now," Roberts says, "begins the journey beyond union, beyond self
and God, a journey into the silent an still regions of the unknown."
So begins the outline of a detailed and revealing journey whose insights
are fresh and capable of nudging a person toward a further
understanding. It is also without reference to Eastern traditions and
vocabulary, which makes it interesting and different.
Roberts describes a quality of silence she had known on occasions, which
was so total as to evoke fear, annihilation, point of no return. Always
she would return to her usual self, warding off the fear through willful
thoughts of God, thus breaking the silence.
One day, however, that silence could not be broken, for the fear did not
come. And so there was no reason to return to the relationship between
self and God.
For 8 days the silence rendered her almost unable to function. There
were moments of exhaustion and near black-out. Every chore had to be
done with great attention to every detail.
By the 9th day, Roberts was able to function as usual, but she noticed a
part of her mind had closed down. She had become emptied of the past and
come to live in the present moment.
Trying to understand that silence, Roberts first perceived it to be a
kind of absorption into God. Then, after a month, she revised her
perception to be one of "seeing", a kind of opening-up, not a closing
She soon discarded that perception and decided to research the works of
John of the Cross. There she found nothing describing her experience.
Coming home that day from the library, Roberts turned her gaze inward
and saw there was no longer a center, no longer a self. There was
emptiness. She felt great joy and lightness with this knowledge. She
decided that this emptiness and joy was Christ. She could live forever
with that. However, further annihilation was in the cards.
download PDF HERE
Also an interview with the author:
excellent synopsis interview with Roberts
Bernadette Roberts is the author of two extraordinary books on the Christian contemplative journey, The Experience of No-Self (Shambhaia, 1982) and The Path to No-Self (Shambhala, 1985). A cloistered nun for nine years, Roberts reports that she returned to the world after experiencing the “unitive state,” the state of oneness with God, in order to share what she had learned and to take on the problems and experiences of others.
excellent synopsis interview with Roberts
The path of Noself
What is Self
PDF for Roberts’ “Finale” begin page 157