INSTANT MANIFESTATION OF HORRORS & PANIC IN FLESH
BUT SO IT IS OTHERWISE
AMAZING HAPPENINGS ON BEACH WITH AWARENESS CHANGE
INTO QUANTUM DIMENSIONAL GRACE
THE TRUTH OF BEING THAT HAS EONS AGO
Action on this path unfolds without effort.
Work is accomplished without strain.
Life is enjoyed without clinging.
From Tao Te Ching, Chapter 63
when my conditioned mind is in control.
Balancing a dozen spinning plates
while herding a dozen cats
and at the same time
keeping a dozen ducks in line.
Any fool knows that plates
are made for serving food,
Cats are best left to themselves
and can manage very well, thank you.
well, perhaps a mother duck
could manage for a second or two,
but ducks soon fly away.
It is hard to keep our attention on the task at hand
when our mind is holding on to yesterday’s work.
- - - the effortless action that seems to do itself - - -
is not a product of my conditioned mind.
It emerges from my “Original Mind,”
my “Tao Mind,” that is never separate from the flow of energy
in and through and out again.
This Mind clings to nothing and can use that energy for effective,
powerful, and passionate action;
then immediately be available
to the flow for whatever’s next,
Act … let go.
Act … let go.
Act … let go.
Always available, always renewed.
Act without doing;
work without effort.
Think of the small as large
and the few as many.
Confront the difficult
while it is still easy;
accomplish the great task
by a series of small acts.
The Master never reaches for the great;
thus she achieves greatness.
When she runs into a difficulty,
she stops and gives herself to it.
She doesn't cling to her own comfort;
thus problems are no problem for her.
Tao Te Ching # 63
Stephen Mitchell Translation
July 7, 2017
It takes practice to rewire neural circuitry, to re-encode pathways with empathy, attunement, and compassion.
Unfortunately, for most this foundation was not available;
there was not holding environment that could contain, dance, and play
with the magic of a little emotional being.
It takes action in the moment,
a new response to the eruption of dysregulating thoughts and feelings,
over time, to reorganize the nervous system and re-author a new,
more integrated narrative about who we are.
no matter what is going on in your life.
Instead of urgently seeking relief,
become curious about the unique ways you become activated in relationship. Instead of falling into the habitual extremes of dissociation and fusion,
enter into communion with the burning,
the charged, and the claustrophobic,
unresolvable alive world of feeling.
Initially, we must train ourselves to stay
with the intensity for very short periods of time,
titrating and pendulating the overwhelming thoughts and feelings,
going back and forth testing our window of tolerance.
Slowly, we discover that even though it may feel otherwise,
we can endure this material.
Our survival is not actually being threatened.
Before we can begin to move deeper,
we must first know in an experiential way that staying with it
is not going to take us down.
that it can tolerate very small doses,
we then stay for two seconds, instead of one.
We move from merely “tolerating” to starting to contain it,
realizing it is not some enemy coming at us from the outside,
but a lost aspect of ourselves, longing to be allowed home.
Not “acceptance” in that we are condoning or settling for something
– or that we “like” it or “want” it to say –
but in the sense of a fiery, compassionate willingness.
We are willing to experience what has come, finally,
for we sense that resisting what is,
this whole play of experiential avoidance,
is the root cause of nearly all our psychological suffering.
No, I’m not going to do that any longer.
Even though it takes everything in me,
I am going to move toward my vulnerability and care for it,
re-encoding a new pathway.
Even though I will not be “perfect” at it and likely “fail” over and over again,
I will remain steadfast in my vision.
where we aren’t as interested in clear insight and pure awareness,
safe as a witness on the sidelines,
but rather begin to explore what it would actually mean
to open our hearts to our pain.
To hold it like a mother surrounding and enveloping her baby.
This can be pretty radical and truly goes against the grain.
We start to bring kindness to the feelings,
to the parts of ourselves we had to disown at an earlier time.
with deeper and more integrated forms of awareness,
compassion, and exploration,
traveling into the core of whatever arises and touching it with our hearts. Eventually we may even come to love our triggers,
longing to hold them and know their subtleties,
standing in awe at the opportunity to learn more about love
as it comes into form.
this work if often best done within a safe (yet provocative) relational container, where we can make use of an attuned other’s calm and soothed nervous system
to help contain, hold, and integrate this material.
That’s not to say that we cannot do a lot on our own.
It is kind to allow ourselves to at times turn to another for help,
while at other times to stay contained and practice on our own.
knowing that this work we are doing is never for ourselves alone.
But is for life everywhere.