...THE Rx/ANTIDOTE FOR BECOMING
A PILLAR OF SALT
VIA PARALYZING PANIC**
THE SENSE OF PARALYZING PANIC
IS NOW…. ONLY ITS DEATH GASP
THAT SNAKE WAS ONLY A STICK
AS DELICIOUSLY ALIVE RESIDES/PRESIDES
WITH CONIUNCTIO’S COMPASSION AND KINDNESS
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for all * Notes
to dive into your increasing depths
where life calmly gives out
its own secret.
reflection seated before me,/
sat composed, fighting/
the melody of rebellion/
chords in her elbows,/
her wrists lay curled/
and fingers faced her chin,/
she wore a black spandex/
dress, whose seams she constantly stretched/
toward her knee/
she made adjustments as I did my falling/
sweatpants, ether and threaded/
in gold, she mouthed/
a tall tale to me/...
...of men pulsing their breath/
into the back of her throat/
one hand chastising her neck/
palm to palm/
until her brain went numb
*GOD I AM – Peter Erbe
**as those first two lines write there is a now-familiar, repetitive panic trying to again paralyze, but INSTANTLY Sense this is a death gasp, in my Being….of the old laments/history of panic’s possession….ie when literally turned into that Biblical Pillar of Salt
In Sara Crispe's writing below...
what is seemingly "trying to destroy me"
is within my own consciousness... my inner levels...
and literally has nothing to do with physical world or geographic location.... as AA & CG Jung say..
...even if we make one or a zillion. "geographic cures"
our unexamined life comes with us...
“The only thing that can be saved is me.
And only if I leave and don't look back.
Never look back.
Yet I can’t help it. I take the first step away.
I leave where I never should have been towards where I must go.
If only I can make it there and leave this behind.
Truly leave behind me what aims to bring me down
and destroy me with it.
If I can keep going it will be gone forever.
If I can let go, it will lose its power to hurt me.
And yet, time and time again, I look back.
And I am once again as frozen as that pillar of salt.”
Sara Esther Crispe
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
AA Promises #3
***See OceanSpeak Category for CONIUNCTIO