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A prominent intellectual asked me,
"Are you a Christian, a Hindu, or a Buddhist? I can't tell which."
I answered, "Neither can I."
"You must be confused," he said.
"Yes," I replied, "and blessed are you when you are confused,
for then your mind will descend into the heart."
"But what is your religion?" he asked.
I was a twice born Hindu.
I was an unborn Buddhist.
Then the Goddess hugged me
to her bosom of abysmal silence,
suckled me on the sweet milk of mere breathing.
and fountained out of the wound in my crown.
My eyes became black holes at the center of twin galaxies.
"Now I am a finger writing Truth on still water:
Impermanence is the soul of Beauty."
Alfred K. LaMotte
Breath of the Trinity
You bathed in boundless love before you first breathed.
Is it any different now?
Let each inhalation surfeit you with un-created joy.
Let each exhalation cast you back
into the birthless sea of divine night.
Honor the Holy Spirit as your own breath,
and She will honor you.
Wait upon the Lord,
whose dwelling is the very now of expectation.
When your heart is hollower than a seed,
offer yourself without a word to that emptiness.
Then the Beloved, who is invisible,
will fill you with unspeakable light.
Alfred K. LaMotte
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What if I could share with you an insight
that would allow time to always be on your side?
it’s essential for you to side with time.
For this to occur,
you would have to accept how everything in time
is either happening or not happening --
not as a karmic punishment,
but an instigator of your highest evolving potential.
what pearl of wisdom allows you
to see this truth so clearly and authentically?
the hands of time as one of our most enlightened teachers, instead of viewing it as a problem to fix?
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What if I could share with you an insight that would allow time to always be on your side? In order for time to be on your side, it’s essential for you to side with time. For this to occur, you would have to accept how everything in time is either happening or not happening — not as a karmic punishment, but an instigator of your highest evolving potential. The question remains, what pearl of wisdom allows you to see this truth so clearly and authentically? What insight inspires you to acknowledge the hands of time as one of our most enlightened teachers, instead of viewing it as a problem to fix?
The answer is simple, but it requires some unpacking to truly absorb its full potency. It is the wisdom of realizing — you are not your urges. This doesn’t mean it’s wrong to have urges. Equally so, if you find yourself solely motivated by the seed of each frenetic surge and constantly reaching out to satisfy each momentary craving that bubbles up, you cannot develop the proper space to gain such a clarifying perspective. Whether you are blessed to be in a position to fulfill each urge, or constantly chase after each sudden impulse, if you are someone whose life is run by the fulfillment of urges, you are operating in a state of survival mode.
Since a core belief of ego is identifying with urges as a means of personal survival, through your conditioning process, you become hard-wired to think that fulfilling each urge remains as necessary as breathing. You may not walk around conscious of this belief but it often reveals itself through the repetition of your daily patterning.
or constantly chase after each sudden impulse,
if your life is run by the fulfillment of urges,
you are operating in a state of survival mode."
How soon after something either good or bad happens
are you obligated to text someone about it?
What do you feel in your body if the phone rings and instead of answering it,
you just watch it go to voicemail?
What arises in your body when there isn’t a world to check in with on a virtual level?
Can you go to dinner and maintain an open level of conversation
without looking at your phone,
even when the other person goes to the bathroom?
Such questions are not meant to out anyone,
but to expose the hair-trigger like responses that you may not realize run your life.
That which runs your life tends to ruin your life,
until life is run solely by the light dwelling within you.
This means as long as our lives are governed
by the fulfillment of satisfying momentary urges,
we live in a state of urgency.
Whether aware of it or not,
when your nervous system is wired with ongoing programs of urgency,
you tend to live in a matrix of ego consciousness.
This occurs no matter how much high level wisdom has been absorbed.
And isn’t that the strangest part of it all;
so many people awakening to high level wisdom,
while unaware of the patterning of urgency that runs them on a personal level.
You might be able to zip across the Universe
and taste the joy of the cosmos,
but if your body remains caught in a loop
of checking your email box or texting all day,
you haven’t brought all the wisdom from the stars
back into the body to be grounded and integrated.
many bright lights along a modern-day spiritual journey,
these words would only be of the deepest service
if they included what to do about it,
when and if,
you find yourself playing out such patterns.
This might not even be applicable to your lifestyle,
but a snapshot into the framework of what keeps others from showing up for you
in the way you show up for them.
In either case,
the way out of the urgency matrix is to
clearly see how you aren’t your urges.
They may feel as if they belong to you.
They may remind you of all the things you like and prefer
that you associate with feelings of well-being,
and they may be so cleverly placed to erupt within you
the moment you aren’t feeling your best.
Despite how personally-crafted each urge may be,
especially during a time when emotional relief is needed the most,
once you begin seeing each urge
as a part of a pattern playing out within you,
you begin to see yourself,
not as your urges,
but as the witness alive within their orbit.
to directly see that you are not your urges,
please consider these helpful strategies:
1. Each momentary urge is like an ad campaign personally targeting you to continually buy into the vibration of ego.
The ad campaign needs you to assume
you aren’t whole and complete exactly as you are,
so you can look outside of yourself
for other people, places, and things to fulfill you.
Each time an impulse arises, with the “make it or break it” energy of urgency,
as if your life will amount to great loss
unless you act upon its demands,
you are given an opportunity
to either maintain your membership in ego consciousness
or step beyond it.
The key is allowing each impulse to arise
without assuming it's your destiny to fulfill it.
When the fulfillment of urges become greater choice points,
instead of dire necessities,
you are beginning to see the ad campaigns
that can only target your preferences
when lost in the urgency loop.
It’s one thing to not buy what someone attempts
to sell you on a retail or even a political level,
but it’s a whole new level of liberation
when not even your own urges strike
you as something that need to be fulfilled.
"The key is allowing each impulse to arise
without assuming its your destiny to fulfill it."
If you are someone who’s knee-jerk reaction is fulfilling each urgent request,
it may be a sign that you are run by
the insatiable hunger of an unconscious mind,
instead of nourished by the wisdom of an awakening heart.
If you’re unsure whether your heart truly resonates
with the endless demands of your mind,
simply employ this fiercely-discerning wisdom:
when in doubt, go without.
If you don’t know how
perfect, whole, and complete you are without something,
how do you know that thing will do anything
but make you hungrier for more?
How do you know checking your phone for texts or updates
will make you feel better,
if without the awareness of how happy you are already?
Perhaps by going without or limiting your phone usage,
you’ll see that constantly checking doesn’t create greater fulfillment.
It merely perpetuates a pattern where you are teaching your brain
to have this same craving a few minutes from now.
In order to break-free of your personally-targeted inner ad campaigns of ego,
you must be willing to go without.
If there is a feeling of desperation and anxiety when going without,
as if you are missing an important experience in life
or even feeling left behind or out of the loop,
that should be the tip-off
of where each urge is coming from.
Another helpful strategy to see how you aren’t your urges
is to respond to each urge with a question,
“What happens if I don’t?”
Such a question is calling the ego’s fear-based agenda
into full awareness where ego is invited to use the threat of loss
to sell you on fulfilling another momentary urge.
The pattern is constructed out of one simple but limiting belief:
I have to keep acquiring more,
in order to be further away
from the threat of less.
By responding with the question,
“what happens if I don’t?”,
you are consciously inviting the ego
to reveal its game plan by sharing with you
the threat of loss that looms overhead
if you don’t cower to its impulsive needs.
Once it shares its doomsday-like scenario,
you can respond with the question,
“And then what happens after that?”
The strategy is to keep authentically asking the ego
what happens after each threat of loss occurs
until the very ego structure attempting to sell you
on any particular urge
dissolves back into the wholeness of Source.
For those who are willing to question their urges
versus cower to any degree of impulsive pressure,
great relief, eternal freedom, and existential joy
become your natural state of being
expressed in full embodied awareness.
As the eternal witness
experiencing its radiance of light throughout your personal senses,
the soul watches the coming and going of urges,
only gravitationally pulled into their orbit to the degree of ego
that has yet be cleared out of the cells of the human body.
If you take a moment to recall any momentary urge
that felt as if the fate of the world depended on you acting upon it,
you may be able to see how you were only able to notice its arising
because you were already there.
If you notice an urge arise,
it indicates that you must have arrived first,
in order to notice it.
Even if you see urges as fleeting and shape-shifting,
notice yourself as the inner witness,
whose awareness does not come and go like each urge tends to be.
Whether noticing yourself
as that which is prior to each impulse
or the constant stream of awareness
within the orbit of each fleeting request,
you are gaining the proper space and perspective
to acknowledge urges as experiences,
instead of as extensions of self.
each urge must be given permission to pass.
Many get stuck in misunderstanding the urgency of ego
with their soul’s deepest calling.
Because many of us live in a state of struggle,
urgently awaiting the Universe to call upon us
for a special mission to spare us
of the insufferable boredom of everyday life,
we often misperceive each urgent request of ego
as a heavenly message.
When we receive messages from Source,
they are affirming, straight-forward,
expressed with a calm voice,
and contain no ultimatums such as
“do this or else”
“If you don’t do this, bad things will happen”.
Even if you passed on the guidance of the Universe,
it would faithfully orbit your field until you acted upon it.
This makes the proper use of intuition to be rather fool-proof
when not caught up in a race against time scenario.
When you are not secretly looking for ways to escape
the majestic fate of your current climate of circumstances,
you are then able to truly feel
into the governing wisdom of Universal Truth
versus the oscillating desperation
of urgency in motion.
they are affirming, straight-forward, expressed with a calm voice,
and contain no ultimatums such as
“do this or else”
“If you don’t do this, bad things will happen.”
and is one that will unravel any remaining aspect of ego.
It is a way to see through the facade
of believing you are your urges — once and for all.
It is how time can always be on your side,
but can only occur, once you side with time.
In order to know that (drum roll please) time is always right.
The fact that you have more time away from what you desire
is right from the standpoint of time — giving you space
to recognize your true inherent wholeness,
whether anything external gets worse, better,
in any variation of more or less.
The fact that you have all that you have
and don’t have what you don’t is done on purpose.
It is time’s deliberate attempt
to free you from your conditioned spell
of inner negotiation,
where you withhold your most radiant qualities
until the objects of your desire are given.
Not wanting to live our lives at full capacity
until things change in our favor
is the battlecry of ego.
Daring to live with joy, faith, openness, gratitude,
love, and ease,
no matter what comes or goes
is the perfection of our souls in action.
Whenever outcomes don’t seem to go your way
or you find yourself having a lot of time
separate from the fulfillment
of your desires,
it remains an opportunity to thank time
for being one of your wisest teachers.
to discover how perfect, whole, and complete I already am,
by showing me I don’t need more of this or less of that
to have better experiences.
Most of all,
thank you for helping me see
that I am not my urges
but the inner witness of all that arises.
the simplicity and peaceful calling of our soul’s deepest desires
can dawn within and guide us forward,
whether giving us what we want
or offering more than we’ve ever imagined along the way.
Only by seeing through the facade of urgent patterning,
can we embrace a journey
that steadily prepares us to receive
far more than any urge can crave.
This begins an exciting brand-new chapter of our soul’s journey.
Welcome home, beautiful one.
All For Love,
YOU ARE NOT YOUR URGES